I’m really lucky. I have a lot.
but a lot of the times I just feel really sad
I could do better
I just don’t feel good about myself
I feel alone. I feel sad. I have really close friends but lately I’ve been feeling left out. They like to hang out when I’m busy and when I have time, all 3 of them coincidentally do not have the time. I’ve told them countless times how sad this makes me when they do things together without me but when I do, they get defensive and say it’s my fault for not having time when they do.
Ever since I’ve undertaken on more projects other than just going to class and going to work, I’ve had less time to spend with them. I don’t feel like this is even close to the amount of work I’ll have when I have an actual full time job. If I end up getting even busier, I’ll have close to none free time for them or anyone.
I think I understand now how you can have it all but still feel so alone. It can take a toll emotionally. It reminds me of Heath Ledger and Daul Kim and others who couldn’t do it anymore.
I just want someone to talk to everyday.
Every time I think I’m out of this slump, I fall back in. There is a sadness that doesn’t leave.
“I like books that aren’t just lovely but that have memories in themselves. Just like playing a song, picking up a book again that has memories can take you back to another place or another time.”
– Emma Watson, Time Magazine (November 2010)
are you sure you’re sassy
are you sure not just an annoying piece of shit
(Source: earthnation, via sekjin)
No matter who you are or what you look like, just remember that Aang thinks you’re interesting and would like to be your friend.
#seriously though aang is the nicest guy ever #you can literally try to kill him and his friends and he will still think that you are worth his friendship #no mistake you ever make will stop him from loving you #he didn’t let prejudices (even justified ones) stop him from being friends with and helping the fire nation students #he gave the spirit a second chance even after it attacked him and sokka because he knew what it was going through #and he respected the fact that we all go through stuff and we all need the benefit of the doubt sometimes #and because he’s a kickass avatar #his biggest regret and his biggest fear is letting down the people he loves #he thinks he did it with the air nomads and he was so afraid that he’d do it again #but he didn’t let it ruin him #he went through so much suffering and loss and he didn’t close himself off #he was still so open and loving and he was always there for others#and wow i just love aang so much
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wow I sound really annoying and bitchy and on occasion I stop and think how annoying and bitchy I am and then I worry how annoying and bitchy I sound to other people but then I just get over it like whatever people just deal OKAY and then I’m back to being annoying and bitchy
I have a panel to be on tomorrow and I am quite nervous and unprepared. I should go do that now but..TOO NERVOUS
I have an IMC Campaign deadline also for tomorrow which is incomplete and I’m not sure what kind of new reality I want to introduce. I should do this now too..
Separate from all of the above but who thought being VP of an organization would be so demanding??? SO MUCH left to do. Meetings to plan, content of meetings to plan, charities to find, educating the public, raising awareness, recruiting, getting pledges. I MEAN!!!! HELP
My least favorite part of this organization is the amount of males who refuse to join because it “only promotes women’s rights.” But since when do men’s rights need to be promoted? If you really want to boast about your rights, just..go watch FOX News or something..it’ll make you feel better. LISTEN BRO, men have always had rights to everything. Well actually..the white man always had the right to everything. I DONT WANNA GET INTO THIS I CAN GO ON FOREVER ABOUT THIS. But helping a cause for women’s rights does not lesser your manhood. It does not affect me in any way whether you join or not but please do not think that way. We are moving forward.
Also, class tomorrow but I might have to cut. I really dislike cutting class idk I like all my classes but I need to reach deadlines. So why am I blogging? FUCK ME
I don’t even want to think about next week. Well I’m looking forward to it since it’s fashion week but that means a super tight schedule and strictER deadlines and more writing and more writing and then finally..MELTDOWNS
ha ok I should go accomplish something
“What matters in life is not what happens to you but what you remember and how you remember it.”
–
Gabriel García Márquez
(via quote-book)
“I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought, there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it’s true I’m here, and I’m just as strange as you.”
– Frida Kahlo (via efrye)
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“This sentence has five words. Here are five more words. Five-word sentences are fine. But several together become monotonous. Listen to what is happening. The writing is getting boring. The sound of it drones. It’s like a stuck record. The ear demands some variety. Now listen. I vary the sentence length, and I create music. Music. The writing sings. It has a pleasant rhythm, a lilt, a harmony. I use short sentences. And I use sentences of medium length. And sometimes, when I am certain the reader is rested, I will engage him with a sentence of considerable length, a sentence that burns with energy and builds with all the impetus of a crescendo, the roll of the drums, the crash of the cymbals—sounds that say listen to this, it is important.”
–
Gary Provost (via qmsd)
This might be my favourite quote on writing ever.
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